I have decided I am, indeed, my own worst enemy. I am the sort of person that puts everyone else and what they need in front of what I want, because I just can't bear the thought of loose ends and things which need doing being left undone. I just cannot stand back and let other people do things, or not do them as the case would probably be. I am always trying to do as much as I can so other people don't have to. Maybe I should have MUG written across my forehead!
Baby R has been unwell today, very rare for her. Toddler R has gone out of his way to be a pest, although I think he was just very green eyed at the amount of cuddles I was having to give Baby R. Even then, I have spent the day doing paperwork and making phonecalls, doing washing and washing up and cooking. Because they all needed to be done, and nobody else was going to do them,
But actually that isn't strictly true. Mr R would have done some things, maybe not to my time frame but he would have got round to things within the time frame they needed to be done in. Other things may have been left over until another day, but it wouldn't have been the end of the world if I had left the towel wash until tomorrow or, God forbid, even Wednesday - they would still have been dry for the weekend.
I need to make a resolution to myself before I go back to work, to be a bit more selfish. But how on earth do you take your foot off the gas when you know life will revert to a much slower pace if you do??
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